patiently.waiting.

as i sit waiting ...waiting...waiting...i have begun to ponder what it means to be patient. i have, all my life, been told that i am a highly impatient person and that i am selfish. however, as i have gotten older and wiser, i have begun to realize that i am the earlier - patient and unselfish. although i am older, and thus wiser, during times of patience and unselfish acts, i curse in my mind, and complain out loud. therefore, it is really worth me being so patient if i am complaining? giving something to someone else, my patience, but taking from someone else, their sanity, with my complaints?

one would have to be present in the time of my patient, unselfish complaining, but also have to understand the great strides i am making being patient and unselfish...from being painted a selfish, impatient individual from the start.

take, for example, today. i sacrifice, unselfishly, my time and sleep, to come to school, on my day off, to study while waiting for my sister to finish her classes and group work, only to be waiting, patiently, but complaining through and through, because everything takes so long. i know that it is not my sister's fault, however, i can't walk up to her and the group and begin a rampage of missing software and incomplete work, that is rude. my solution: curse in my mind and complain through my mouth.

therefore, i will continue to sit. wait. curse. unselfishly and patiently.